This post is probably not going to be very pregnancy related at all actually. I am 30 weeks along (only a long 10 more to go) but the past couple weeks have been quite rough. It's hard to say whether they have been rough because of pregnancy or because God is trying to teach me something. Probably a combination of both. It just seems like I am constantly at the end of my rope these days. There have been a few changes in life over the past month and that's probably the reason why I've been challenged so much these past couple of weeks. For starters, we are church hunting. Due to various reasons that don't need to be dragged up here, we have decided to look around at other churches in our area. It's not an easy thing to do. We are tearing our kids out from the church that they have known and throwing them into a new experience. It's not a bad thing, but it is hard to see them miss their friends and Sunday morning routine. We are tearing ourselves out from the church where we got married and dedicated our two kids. My family is there. It's not easy. But God doesn't ask you to do the easy thing all the time. In fact, most times He asks you to do something, it's not going to be the easy way out.
The next change has been Bible study. And this isn't really a change, but more so of a challenge. The first study we did this year was "What Happens When Women Say Yes to God". And it kind of kicked my butt. I don't like change and I don't like being stretched. Saying yes to God usually means one or both (most often both) of those things. Maybe this one should have come first because it happened first chronologically, but oh well. Going through the study challenged me and then came our decision regarding church. And I had to put what I had learned into practice. And I'll repeat, it isn't easy.
The next thing that's been pretty huge on my heart recently is our adoption. We are in a holding phase right now just waiting for God to give us the go ahead to apply. Haiti has finished it's adoption reorganization and we now fit much better their requirements for international adoption. That said, it still won't be a quick and easy process. But God has been working in both Dan & I as we talk about finances and what we are going to do in regards to this. In God's time and as we wait, I'll use the time to prepare. I can't say I'm not excited for this adventure though!
And yes, my pregnancy has been not easy either. This one has been the hardest thus far. I haven't felt great most days. I haven't had a whole lot of energy and I am just ready to be done. It's a good thing Christmas is here because that will give me a distraction for the next 6 weeks. And then I've only got a few left - in which I can busy myself with Brooklyn's birthday, Maddison's birthday & getting ready for baby. Our January/February is about to be crazy crazy crazy with 3 birthdays and Christmas/New Year's in 1 1/2 months.
