Sunday, March 31, 2013

Easter Musings

So today is Easter.  And I'm in a funk mood.  For one, I'm tired.  B hasn't slept well for the past couple of nights and that's always tiring.  I'm also missing my angel babies.  Easter always makes me think of them.  Some years it makes me excited and anxious to join them in heaven.  Some years I just miss them.  This year I miss them.  Angel baby #1 would be 1 1/2 this year and angel baby #2 would still be a tummy baby.  But by now I would know for sure whether he/she was a he/she.  And I'm just missing my heaven babies today.

One the other side of that though, is that I have hope.  I may miss my babies, but I have hope, because of today, that I will eventually get to spend the rest of my days with them.  And that gives me peace despite the longing.  Praise God that His sacrifice has given us hope.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Kids & Church

Why is it that kids are always relegated to junior church or sunday school during the morning service?  For a few months now we have been discussing the possibility of moving closer to town and therefore, probably moving churches as well.  Neither of these things is likely to happen tomorrow (and actually probably not for a few years) but most likely it will happen eventually.

In our current church there is Sunday school prior to the service and then clipboard activities that correspond to the sermon for kids ages 3 to 10.  Nursery is provided from infant to age 3 if you choose to use that option (which I do from about 10ish months until 2 1/2 ish).  I like the system.  I know it is hard to have young children in the service, but I like that my kids are hearing the same sermon that I am.  I like that I get to help them pay attention by working with them to get the correct answers to the questions on their sheets (well for my kid right now it's just coloring them, but someday we will get to answering those questions!).  Sure I may not get as much from the sermon as I would if they had junior church/sunday school then, but I am learning with them and they are seeing me learn.  That is important is it not?  Some mornings are definately more challenging than others, especially since my child is only just 3 and still not quite at the level to fully understand the clipboards.  But I still love that time I get to have with her in the service.

So I was looking at the other churches in our area, especially the ones we've talked about going to eventually, and all of them have the children leave during the service.  And I couldn't help but think that I would miss having my kids beside me.  Sunday school is a good thing.  Kids need to learn on their own level and at their own comprehension.  As hard as it is to get to church for Sunday school, I make that effort because I believe that those lessons are valuable to the kids.  But I love having my kids beside me during the whole service and I would definately miss them sitting beside me. 

I never really thought it was odd until I read this blog about parenting in the pew.  And then I got curious to see what other churches around our area did.  I guess our church is just unique this way because it's been this way for a long time and I just naturally thought that most other churches did Sunday School at a seperate time as well.  Only time will tell what we eventually decide to do, but this is one more thing that will make it a particularily difficult decision for me.

Monday, March 11, 2013

Happy Birthday Angel Baby #1

Today is a bittersweet day.  Today is the birthday of my good friend Allison.  Although we live many miles apart, you are still a cherished friend!  Today is also the birthday of my first angel baby.  Two years ago my life was changed forever.  Two years ago my precious baby, whom I do not know whether it was a boy or girl, left this earth for Heaven.  Two years ago my baby left my body for the arms of Jesus.  While he/she is safer there then they would ever be here, my heart still hurts.  There is rarely a day that goes by when I don't think of my two angel babies and today I celebrate the birthday of one of them.  So Happy 2nd birthday my sweet baby!  Enjoy celebrating your birthday with Jesus today!  And happy more than 2nd birthday Allison!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Joy & Brokenness

My heart is joyful and yet broken at the same time.  We are in the midst of 40 Days for Life.  40 Days for Life is a worldwide event where people pray, for 40 days, for the end of abortion.  It is moving and powerful and wonderful stories of lives saved always come from these events. 

And then there is this story.  The story of a surrogate mom who was faced with the choice to flee her state or be forced into an abortion.  I am thankful that the woman carrying this baby values life and was able to find wonderful parents for this child.  I am broken at the choices of the biological parents.

Pray to end abortion.  If you are close to a 40 Days for Life event, volunteer.  If not, just pray.  God is not held to our locations.  Prayers from around the world can make an impact.